Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

Six weeks…. It seems like such a short time to get an entire house packed and moved with two small kids. Not to mention the prep involved in moving to a piece of land with no house on it– the planning for what we will need, ordering supplies, making arrangements. We are having such a difficult time getting motivated. It doesn’t feel real. It feels overwhelming. We prayed and prayed for God’s direction in our lives. We prayed for God to show us where he wanted us to be– if he wanted us to be in Minnesota, we prayed for him to have the house sell and to make the transition easy. This is what we have always wanted. For some reason, though, we both feel very strange about leaving. We are leaving a place that we were never sure we wanted to be in the first place. We are leaving a place that we complained about and never felt like we belonged in. Now that we are leaving, we feel sad. This is where both of our kids were born. This is where we both became stronger in our faith and learned how to put down roots, ask people for help, find forever friendships, and be a part of something bigger than ourselves. We have an awesome church family. We also prayed for God to make his will known. So we listed our house and got two offers with three showings. We are in a contract, and the house is going to sell. It happened at the right time for us to be able to move to our land and take advantage of the summer to build our little cabin and camp with the kids while we build. It happened so that we have enough time to work out the details of the move and make a trip to my parents to store some things. It happened in just the right way, and I have nothing to complain about. But here we are, with six weeks left, feeling sad, feeling conflicted, and feeling frozen. I should be packing. I should be making phone calls. I should be planning. I should be excited! Deep down, I am scared. It feels weird to be leaving here after five years and going somewhere to start all over again. It feels scary. Of course, I know that God often asks us to do things that we don’t want to do, things that are scary and make us nervous. This is how we grow.

So tomorrow, I will begin packing……but there is definitely a piece of my heart that will remain here with the many people who have been such a pivotal part of our growth. Thanks to each and every one of you (you know who you are!!). You will be deeply missed. Perhaps a goat or a chicken will bear your name on a Minnesota farm in the near future!! In the meantime, I will continue to look to God to guide us in this journey and adventure and know that we will be where we are supposed to be!

Proverbs 3:5-6 ESV
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.

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